I was just over at a friend's house, picking up some books I lent her. She left for work in a hurry after I got them and I couldn't get out fast enough before her two undesirable roommates start talking to me, saying how I look great and they haven't seen me in a while (funny, because last I heard, they didn't have such nice things to say about me). So, they're in the kitchen, deciding to make a huge platter of nachos. They start talking about adding extra layers of cheese, ranch dressing, you name it... just about everything but the kitchen sink was going on those things. Bitches... how dare they do this in front of me. What to do?
And it's then that the two devils pop up over my shoulder - there's no angel here, you see - and I know what needs to be done. I start contributing handful after handful of shredded cheese, then loading it with extra globs of ranch, and of course neglected to mention that I would not be partaking in the devouring of this 2,500 calorie delight, until after I'd been maliciously watching them gorge their pie holes with this stuff.
They acted like they would have a hard time finishing the remainder between just the two of them and tried to pressure me into eating it but I declined and I know as well as they do that they'll lick that shit clean like the gluttonous bitches that they are.
If you can't tell, I'm a little on edge about having to eat on Thanksgiving. I know it won't be much and I know it'll be right back out of me but I really don't want to break this fast! After YEARS of yo-yo-ing, failing on fasts, binging, hating myself, rinse, repeat... I'm finally, FINALLY successful with one - and now I have to stop it for some terrible holiday that I'm morally against in the first place... just to placate some woman who probably secretly loathes me deep down anyway.
Oh well, it won't be more than 300 calories or so which I'm sure seems retarded to even be worrying about, it's just I don't want to break my momentum. But anyway, I will deal with it and start back up on my fast as soon as I get home Thursday night.
How are you girls and boys doing? Good I hope. Holidays are hell for us but we have try to be strong. Sending lots of strong vibes and love.
xoxoxo
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you could pretend to be sick that way you could stay home all day and skip the eating. but really 300 isnt that much but, i know how much it sucks to have to stop when you have so much momentum . you should do what you wont regret.
ReplyDeletestay strong
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Watching other people gorge themselves while you sit back and watch is painful, but at the same time empowering. Nice work : ) I admire your evil ways. Thanksgiving will be hellish for all of us, but its just one day, just do double exercise before the dinner, I find that makes me have somewhat more peace of mind during eating events I cannot avoid. Also, since thanksgiving is prettymuch inevitable and planned ahead of time its not like your “really” breaking your fast, your still in control, and it will all be over soon.
ReplyDeleteembre - unfortunately I can't not go, it's just not possible, so my plan is to go but make it known I'm 'sick', eat a few bites of veggies and then promptly say that I don't think it's such a good idea to eat anymore, but at least I tried. :p thank you btw! xo
ReplyDeletenoelle marie - Thank you so much for the comment, you're right, I will be sure to work off the cals as well as taking some laxies. and thanks also for not thinking I'm terrible for what I did today, haha. I think this is the only place I could ever admit it. hope you're having a good one, love. xoxo
sending love and good vibes to you girls. We all need all the strength we can get during these holidays <3
Ha! Your devilishness is completely understood! You're great. :)
ReplyDeleteGirl, I agree with noelle marie. You are not really breaking your fast because it will be a planned and controlled event. Just go easy on the little that you do eat because your tummy won't be accustomed to having any food in it. I think you will be fine though.
I am going to use the "not feeling well" excuse too in hopes of avoiding most of the food but we'll see. My mother-in-law is one of those women that believes calories make everything better. Ugh.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow and sending you much love and strength!
xoxox
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maybe it will help increase the metabolism... eat only turkey, then claim to be tired & take a nap. yay triptophan!
ReplyDeleteGinger - thank you for your positivite thought! <3
ReplyDeleteAfricana - My love, mother-in-laws want us to be fat, believe that!
Also, thanks for saying that about not breaking my fast, I truly appreciate it. You're right, it'll be on my terms and it's definitely a one-time, planned event.
Like usual, I will be thinking of you and trying to muster up all the strength in the world for us all!
hugs
xxoxox
I survived! I hope you did too! I am keeping today under 500 cals and going to the gym after work in hopes of burning off several hundred more calories before bed.
ReplyDeleteHope you are doing well! I'm thinking of you.
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Ahh I'm sorry I am so late replying here :(
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking of you too though. Thank you for commenting, it is nice to hear from you as I'm returning.
xoxoxo