Day 1

[2:37 pm] I hate to say this but I am so hungry. I want to eat so badly during the first day or two (or three) but at least there is comfort in the fact that it always becomes more enjoyable after that. I've only had a little of the lemonade so far today. I dumped too much cayenne in accidentally yesterday... which sucks because the container is 3 liters so I am stuck with some nasty aftertaste for the next few days. Usually I quite like the taste of the 'lemonade' but overdosing on the cayenne wasn't such a good idea.

It's hard to push the stress of my failed relationship out of my brain. It just makes me want to eateateat. I hope I'll have some closure soon, though and I'm hoping that this fast will be what I need, or at least guide me in a better direction. Right now I am so drained and just sad, I hope this will revitalize my spirits as well as shed the disgustingness that's on my body.

I should do a light pilates session tonight and then take a nice bath. It helps to have something pleasant to anticipate such as relaxing baths, new lotions, etc; things like this can act as small rewards to help make each day a little easier on the journey.